I hate feeling this way, feeling so hurt, feeling like shit. Everything bottled up in me -____- there's only so much I can take. I've been holding these tears for awhile now, & at this moment I can't help but cry. I just had to let it out, release the tears that's been bottled up in me. I don't even know what to think right now, I just feel like shit. I feel so weak, YOU make me weak & at the same time your my strength to lift me back up on my toes, to keep me standing & not falling all over again. But I can't help but fall, I can't help but fall so deep to ground knowing this could be the end of US. I hate it I do. But shit happens, life is a bitch sometimes. Well to me at least, I just wish we can make this work between us two. I don't want someone so good to up & leave me. It's been 1 year & half, there's no way i'm letting that go to waste ever. I just hope you'd want us to work out, to not give up on us. It would give me so much strength knowing you wouldn't want this to end. Haw !

I love you Logan-Chandler, always. MY FIRST TRUE LOVE.