2faced!

I swear everyone now days are so fucking two faced NO JOKE at all! But this ones hella fucked up, family members being 2 faced is even worse !!! That shit pissed me off two the max, hahahahahaha i swear hearing that from someone made me so upset ! & i believe that person who told me because i love that person & that person wouldn’t lie about something that big. FAMILY should always be FAMILY but you, ha’ a big middle finger up to you seriously! I would never ever do something like that to any of my family member. Thats the most fucked up thing ever. FUCK YOU, ! I cant even look at you the same, cos now your just a straight up 2faced ASSHOLE ! Your dead to me……..I may talk to you, since your family but deep down inside i now fucking know who you truly are. I know we’ll have to forgive one day, and it will be ONE DAY. Not soon tho, it may take months & months or even years. But as of right now, your dead to me FUCK YOU!

You.

I don't even know if i can explain myself....You mean so much to me, more than you will ever know. I swear we've been through hell and back with each other. Its tough love with you. I don't call our relationship crazy because it isn't to other people it maybe because of the way we fight, the way we argue, we say things that we never do mean out of anger, & i honestly hate it, but you know it always happens, i say things that may hurt you and you say things that do hurt me that i do take to heart, i hate that i do take things seriously when you throw tantrums at me. But thats me. I miss the old, i miss how you'd care for me more than anything, how you'd show how much you love me/seeing the way you love me. I miss it, but everything changes...You don't even know how much i miss that guy i use to know, i always look back to our 09' pictures, like the beginning of our relationship. & to see how much i miss that guy i use to know, that guy that use to be so loving & caring. I'm not saying you aren't right now it's just the things you use to do before are the things i miss the most right now. Oh how i wish. Things will never be the same again, unless you try. I love you a lot, the guy your right now is someone i never thought you'd turn out to be, but i do love you, i do. My love never did change about you, because i believe in us way to much. I never in my life doubted this relationship, never did, never will. Now it's just real hard sometimes, now you just don't give of fuck about my feelings, don't give a fuck at all. You love me, i know you do. Because after all these break ups, your still here by my side. & i'm thankful for that. But i hate how i don't see how much you love me anymore, i don't see it. NOTHING ! It's hard to face the fact i could never have that guy i once first knew/met...I wish i could meet you all over again, i miss you logan, the old you. Please come back to me, that guy that loved me more than anything in the world, the one that treat me like a princess that was in love. I need you, i can say i miss the old you a thousand times till i get that guy once again. I miss you. Baby your all i think about 24/7 there's never ever a day your out of my mind, i might sound crazy, but boy oh boy i'm literally in love with you. I can't believe i fell in love with you, i never thought i would but you made me crazy over you....I fall in love with you each and everyday i'm tearing while writing this. I mean only because you mean everything to me, i never want to lose you. We fight, we argue, we scream, we yell, we cry, we say things we don't mean, we tare each other up leaving scars, we throw each other around, we push each other around, we leave each other pain, but in the end we end up falling back together. I guess god knows that no matter what happens between us, the good or bad, we will be together through thick and thin for better and for worst. I would never give up on our love EVER ! & i hope you would never to, that would just break my heart. It really would break my heart. My gosh i love you so much logan your my true love; a lover & a best friend that will be mine forever hopefully. I love how you told me i'm your soul-mate :D makes me so happy. I really want us to last, i don't care what people think about us, it's me and you against the world, people may have doubts in us that we won't last because of the way we treat each other. But that won't change anything in my mind, no one will ever get in between us. I'd kill to be yours forever. Your my life, you have my heart and soul....I LOVE YOU

In love.

I'm in love with my man that keeps me going every single day.

I love you Logan-Chandler Kuhio Oka Hanu A Hiki Mamua Takayuki Hamasaki-Sugioka :D

Hard times.

Starting tomorrow i think we'll have hard times ;( I mean not really but just having you not coming to my house everyday will be hard...Because im so use to seeing you at my house everyday, now the only times you'll be at my house are on weekends but maybe like at least once or twice on weekdays just not EVERYDAY D; It will be hard not seeing you everyday at my house, not you having to see bebby, not you having to see my family, not you having to take naps with me till you have to go home. All that stuff, i know im acting as if it won't even happen anymore its just the fact that i can't even do those thing in your house. I can't have naps with you at your own house, when i go to your house it doesnt feel like home because im not accepted there you know, & it hurts. It hurts the fact that i can't even go in the house knowing your mom knows im there. I just want to feel accepted with your family, well your moms side at least, cos when im with your dads side i feel accepted, i feel like i fit right in, you dont need to hide me from him. But with your mom you have to hide me, she knows about me, but she doesnt like me here and there and i just get so hurt and confused. I just want to feel like family with her, like how your already family in my family.....I wanna feel like you, the comfort feeling were your accepted in my family, and of course you are. & i love that.....I wish i could just walk right into your house and do anything just how you do that when you come into my house. Your not shame to do anything in my house, you dont even get busted by my mom about being in the house, because she loves you as much as she loves me. She accepts you because your the reason why i smile, shes happy because im happy with you. & i want that feeling towards your mom. I want your mom to accept me and be happy for you, because your happy with me......Having a strong relationship with you is good, but having a strong relationship with my family & your family is even better. Thats what you have with my family, and thats what i want to have with your family......But we all go through hard times, & i rather have hard times with you than good times with someone else....So i hope tomorrow will be good since ill be coming to your house almost everyday but just chillin outside in the sun because im not allowed in the house ;(

But i would do anything just for you, i love you logan :D

Missing you...

I miss you terribly right now ;( I wish you were here with me right now, next to me laying side by side cuddling to the fullest :) I wouldn't even be on here if you were here by my side.

Tired.

Im up but im so tired, laying here on my bed waiting for a phone call from my boyfriend. Oh how I miss you at this very moment.

Lc.

What would i ever do without you, you should know that. I ain't nothing without you....Well if i was forced to be without you i guess i'd have to live like that. But honestly, without you theres no.....me

MINES!

"& when i say he's the one, he is the one" Trust me, he may not believe it when i say it, but i do. & when i know what i want, he's the one i want to be my forever.....

Passion- Someone (Musiq Soulchild Cover)

After this song finishes, im going to sleep. I didn't finish one of my other blogs but i sure will finish it up tomorrow. Its pretty long thats why lols.

I'm back :D

I'm back on blogger, i think i'm going to be blogging on this every single day again ! Tumblr still is and will always be my favorite blogging site, but tumblr isn't the same anymore. So i decided to bring my blogspot back to life...There's just some things that i'll blog on here rather than on tumblr. Idk lols thats just me heehe.