Sometimes, I wish you were there the nights I cry myself to sleep. Because if you saw the way tears roll down my face continuously, maybe it’d make you stop and think, “Damn. What in the hell am I doing to her?”

My BabyGirl ^__^

Beside logan, she keeps me going every single day. I love her so much. Yeah she’s a dog, BUT she means so much to me LITERALLY. She can always I mean always make me happy, make my days better just by seeing her. When i’m having a bad day, i’m there breaking down, crying my eyes out & she’s there licking my tears away to make things feel better. I swear without her, I don’t how i’ll go on with my day. Coming home to her is the best thing ever Her running around the whole damn’ house in excitement seeing me (; She’s such a hyper dog, & such a rascal at times, but I love her. She’s like my own best friend foreals. She has never done me wrong, she’s always that hyper, adorable dog i’ll always love. I love her more than so much people will ever understand. I love you my BabyGirl Evee ♥ (but she loves logan more than me -____-) hahha. But I still love her.

I fucking hate your past, just as much as you hate mine. But Im still dealing with it.

What do you do when the relationship you love is going through hard times, you fight for it. When things aren’t the same anymore, you change them, try at least.

16 Months ♥

Happy 16 Months baby boy I wish you were here tonight so I could just wish you a happy anniversary in front of your face w/ a kiss, that would be so much better. but its okay. I understand you couldn’t sleep over tonight, but it would’ve been so much better waking up in the morning with each other cuddling, & having a big smile on our faces for our anniversary. But its okay baby, but i’m happy we went this far, many more to come. I Love You Logan ♥

Having a hard time sleeping, & all I can think about is you.

Love this.

No one else comes close....

So every night I always have thousands of thoughts going through my head, I mean who doesn't ? I think thats the only time everything gets to you, but I don't know why. Haw! So, like as thoughts was going through my head, I just thought of you(logan) and I started to cry, only because of how you still think I have feelings for him*. I mean baby I honestly don't! You mean so much to me baby, please remember that, I love you so much. I know i'm full of insecurities and disappointments, but I promise you there's a part of me worth keeping baby. I know to you it may same I still care. But I don't. I know I hurted you, and i never knew that was going to happen, but yeeno shit happens. but i can tell you now, i never did ANYTHING and i can bible that you. I made a mistake and it hurted you and my truly sorry for that, i hope you forgive me ;( Baby i would never hurt you again, or at least i'll try not to. I love you so much to ever hurt you again, because i know how it feels to get hurt. Im crying so much writing this. Please believe me that your the only guy i really care about, & no one else. Its only you babe, trust me its you till the end. I love you w/ my heart babe, and i hope you see that i truly love you. If you don't i'll prove to you, as i always do everyday. I hope its enough for you to see, i don't want to lose someone as special as you babe, your a dream come true, MY dream come true. Your everything i ever wanted. So please know it's you and no one else babe. No one else comes close .... Your my everything. I love you babe ALWAYS !

Through it all.

We’ve had our fair share of insecurities and trust issues, but in between our weaknesses is where we found some of our greatest strengths. There were even times we had to grow apart before we could grow together. Problems were inevitable, but so was happiness and love. We held steady through the fights and tears to appreciate each other and what we have now. We’ve hit rock bottom many times, but we’ve managed to build ourselves back up. We’re learning to balance the good and the bad and I’ve been blessed with a man who is willing to stick with me through it all.

We started off with nothing.....

We didn’t know anything about each other. Names didn’t count. We never knew what laid inside of us from just looking. We didn’t know not one single thing. Then we ended up with something. That turned into this thing, that turned into everything. It’s ironic how we went from strangers, to friends, to bestfriends, and lovers. We didn’t know we’d fall in love with each other. We didn’t know we’d end up together. We didn’t know we’d have a relationship that grew so much till this day, and is still going. We didn’t think we’d last this long. We didn’t think, that we’d be the ones who would actually make such a big impact on each others lives. But here we are today… and I couldn’t have asked to be with anyone else. I thank God that he blessed me with you.

Miss you.

Nights like this, where I miss you more than ever right now ;( I wish you were here sleeping & cuddling with me with our baby girl evee. We miss you oh so much, I miss sleeping & cuddling with you. Sigh I hope soon you will, wishing big right now. I love you baby ♥

Hate it.

I hate nights like these, ugh i know & i bet you were tired. All you had to do was be straight up w/ me & i'll let you sleep and you won't need to come. Haw i was so excited to have fun w/ you tonight, but i guess it ain't happening :( i'm pretty much sad at this moment. But it's okay i understand your tired & worn out. I just hate when you do this to me, what i mean is that i hate when you fall asleep on me i mean it's okay but then at least tell me you'll be sleep so i wouldn't have to be yelling at the phone & shit you know, plus the phone just shuts off on me making me think wtfuck ?! "He told me to hold on, then the phone shuts off" & my ass ends up calling 50times or more, by then i already know you fell asleep....Haw its okay though baby i forgive you, as always.

I love him, I love him with my whole heart but i swear this nigga can get on my nerves more than anyone else could. He know just which buttons to push to piss me the fuck off lols, but at the end of the day this nigga always got this affect on me to remind myself why i'm with him. I love you GayBoy :D