You.

I don't even know if i can explain myself....You mean so much to me, more than you will ever know. I swear we've been through hell and back with each other. Its tough love with you. I don't call our relationship crazy because it isn't to other people it maybe because of the way we fight, the way we argue, we say things that we never do mean out of anger, & i honestly hate it, but you know it always happens, i say things that may hurt you and you say things that do hurt me that i do take to heart, i hate that i do take things seriously when you throw tantrums at me. But thats me. I miss the old, i miss how you'd care for me more than anything, how you'd show how much you love me/seeing the way you love me. I miss it, but everything changes...You don't even know how much i miss that guy i use to know, i always look back to our 09' pictures, like the beginning of our relationship. & to see how much i miss that guy i use to know, that guy that use to be so loving & caring. I'm not saying you aren't right now it's just the things you use to do before are the things i miss the most right now. Oh how i wish. Things will never be the same again, unless you try. I love you a lot, the guy your right now is someone i never thought you'd turn out to be, but i do love you, i do. My love never did change about you, because i believe in us way to much. I never in my life doubted this relationship, never did, never will. Now it's just real hard sometimes, now you just don't give of fuck about my feelings, don't give a fuck at all. You love me, i know you do. Because after all these break ups, your still here by my side. & i'm thankful for that. But i hate how i don't see how much you love me anymore, i don't see it. NOTHING ! It's hard to face the fact i could never have that guy i once first knew/met...I wish i could meet you all over again, i miss you logan, the old you. Please come back to me, that guy that loved me more than anything in the world, the one that treat me like a princess that was in love. I need you, i can say i miss the old you a thousand times till i get that guy once again. I miss you. Baby your all i think about 24/7 there's never ever a day your out of my mind, i might sound crazy, but boy oh boy i'm literally in love with you. I can't believe i fell in love with you, i never thought i would but you made me crazy over you....I fall in love with you each and everyday i'm tearing while writing this. I mean only because you mean everything to me, i never want to lose you. We fight, we argue, we scream, we yell, we cry, we say things we don't mean, we tare each other up leaving scars, we throw each other around, we push each other around, we leave each other pain, but in the end we end up falling back together. I guess god knows that no matter what happens between us, the good or bad, we will be together through thick and thin for better and for worst. I would never give up on our love EVER ! & i hope you would never to, that would just break my heart. It really would break my heart. My gosh i love you so much logan your my true love; a lover & a best friend that will be mine forever hopefully. I love how you told me i'm your soul-mate :D makes me so happy. I really want us to last, i don't care what people think about us, it's me and you against the world, people may have doubts in us that we won't last because of the way we treat each other. But that won't change anything in my mind, no one will ever get in between us. I'd kill to be yours forever. Your my life, you have my heart and soul....I LOVE YOU