As much as I dont wanna live without you , I dont wanna get my hopes up cause what if in the future your walking out the door.....Im too stubborn honestly when it comes to relationships. I feel numb whenever something goes wrong, like a part of me wants to try &fight but the other part of me just wants to give up & walk away saying ” life moves on fuck it ” It sucks when your caught up in the middle of ” trying &walking away ” right. Well , I always find myself in that situaiton only cause I dont wanna be hurt, I refuse to let anyone hurt me. I try to show you emotions, but when I feel like it’s too much I go back to where I started. I try to give you the best of me, but when I feel like Im abouta get hurt Im quick to jump up. It’s not you that has the problem, its not you that I have a problem with. This, I will take full responsibility for cause it’s me that has the issue. My heart & my mind, arent bestfriends they dont always agree on the same things. &I apologize for that. I know I make things hard, but if Im going to be with someone I wanna atleast know that even through the hard times he’s going to be there cause if your the one walkin out when things get tough then you’ll prove to me that this is the reason why I am the way I am.