I get it, I’m fully aware that we both did our share of dirt. Believe me, I know that I hurt you. I’m sorry, from the bottom of my heart I truly am. So there for inorder to show you I’m really sorry and I truly meant it. I wanted to prove it by changing. You know watching out the things I do. But.. I felt as if right when I changed to be the best towards you , thats when you started to differ you’re ways towards me. Yes, I’d admit to you that I do get hurt even when you least expect it. Even if, I don’t show how bad it hurts.. I’m probably hurting more then I can handle. Whenever, I talk to you I hold my breath , I tighten up my stomach whenever I feel a tear about to come down and I close my eyes wishing that right when I open it the pain will vanish. Look, I didn’t work this hard to get this far if I was only going to fuck up on you seconds later.. Trust me, I’d never waste my time and effort just to watch myself fuck things up. You bring out the best& craziest emotions out of me. I’m sorry , if I tend to say things out of pocket. You know whenever I’m pissed I speak out of my ass . All the words just roll out of my tongue .. I don’t meant to half of the time but it’s all that pain and anger getting built up and I don’t know which emotion to let out first. It breaks my heart to yell at you, to even be mad at you. I wish I could just keep my mouth closed no matter how bad you hurt me. But knowing the type of girl I am, I never will break and cave myself in for anyone not even for you. If I wanted to settle for the less , I would have stayed with one of my ex’s but that’s not the case. So, by all means if it’s not too much to ask for but please provide me with the same level respect I give to you. That’s all, I’d want..